Happy 2015! Over the past few weeks the blogosphere has been a flurry of thoughtful year-end reflections and new-year anticipations. Last year I was reluctant to read your year-end posts. While I enjoy seeing how many sewists have been taking on new challenges and I feel joy for you and your accomplishments, I also feel envy and disappointment. (Why couldn’t I sustain momentum with the stashbusting challenge? I wish I had made an Renfrew too! If only I had time to take a pants class.) This is not conducive to good mental health, nor is it strengthening the Sewcialist community. This year I am approaching the new year differently.
At the end of 2014 I felt adrift. The Leliana costume led to creative burn out. She is the costume I am most proud of from a construction point of view, but I put excessive pressure on myself and I’m still exhausted. You’ll notice I still haven’t written about her. 0_0
After PAX I just couldn’t get into a creative mood. I became overwhelmed with a growing sewing and knitting to-do list and too many projects went unblogged. This backlog bled over into many other aspects of my life. I worried my lack of motivation (and lack of completing chores) would negatively affect my new marriage. I felt so tired when I came home from work every day. I began to wonder how much longer I was going to cosplay. (I have decided at least one more year.) I didn’t know what I wanted to achieve with my blog, especially if I was not writing for weeks or months at a time. Who was this Fabric Alchemist? What was she doing?
Over the past few weeks I have committed to reading all of your inspiring year-end reviews, I wanted to bask in this community’s awesomeness and I wanted to train my brain to stop comparing myself and to banish the self-doubt. (So far, so good.) But I still couldn’t write one for myself. Another blog post?!
I am not going to find the clarity I need stewing in my own head. So I reached out to my blog buddies, cosplay pals, and in-person friends and interviewed them about their blogs, their future, their inspirations, and their challenges. I will be posting their responses and my own thoughts as part of a “Craft Table Chat” series.